when i am not around you,
i cant remember what it is about you that irratates me so.
so much to the point that i did not wish to ruin our relationship
any more than the damage i had already done.
just because i am not showing my pain like you,
does not mean it is not there.
as usual i F*ck things up,
and here is another example of this 'wonderful' me
that you so much loved that had to be changed.
sorry i am a b*tch, but that is who i am,
and how i can survive this,
this which i have caused.
pain was the last thing i wanted to do,
but everything i touch,
i break.